Acceptance

So i find myself here once again.I seem to only come here after being heartbroken.So I learned a couple of things in the last couple of minutes, that I’m a control freak and a true soul mate is someone who “is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life”(Eat,Pray,Love).What part did my ex bring out in me? He was the one who brought me TO MY OWN attention.Four years of my life were dedicated to him, to us, but unfortunately US is in the past, and I am left with ME.Finally after a month of intense mourning and constant breakdowns I finally have found some knowledge that will help me with this healing process. Letting go. That’s it, that is the answer.So I loved this guy with all my mind (the heart isn’t capable of producing love),but now its time to love myself. He transformed my life in many ways, that's why God put him in my life. No regrets, thank goodness; I only wish I would have known many things I am currently learning before I started the relationship so that I wouldnt have to go through such a painful healing process. Like I said, it is a PROCESS. Like the control freak I am I want everything to go my way, and on my time. Mission impossible. I must accept things as they are.